I know what it is like to come home and wonder, “is today going to be a alcohol free day”, wondering why this happened to our family and wonder where is the person that I once knew….

I was and am glad of the friends around me that supported and still support me through.

In my opinion, mankind should never have found out about drugs and alcohol due to all the damage it does, I mean falling out of a nightclub on a Friday night is not much fun and I should imagine the same applies for being off your head on drugs.

I’d also like to think that by that time, I would have done some of the things that I can only dream about at the moment, things like a holiday abroad, learning to drive (maybe!)  Or even doing a university course.

Most of all, I hope I will be happy.

There is times where I look at my single friends and actually, I’m quite jealous, they have the freedom and the time to go out and do whatever, like go to uni or traveling abroad, something like that, hard thing to do when your a mother as well, I’ve actually always wondered what uni would be like, but time, finance and lack of “smarts” has pretty much seen off that idea.

But anyway, I guess marriage isn’t just a smooth ride, you gotta take the highs with the lows.

Starting soon………

The Questions

Day 1 – your current relationship; if single discuss how single life is.
Day 2 – where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Day 3 – your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 4 – your views on religion.
Day 5 – a time you thought about ending your own life.
Day 6 – write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 7 – your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Day 8 – a moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
Day 9 – how you hope your future will be like.
Day 10 – discuss your first love and first kiss.
Day 11 – What’s the longest book you’ve ever read? What’s the shortest?
Day 12 – bullet your whole day.
Day 13 – somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
Day 14 – your earliest memory.
Day 15 – your favourite tumblrs.
Day 16 – your views on mainstream music.
Day 17 – your highs and lows of this past year.
Day 18 – your beliefs.
Day 19 – disrespecting your parents.
Day 20 – how important you think education is.
Day 21 – one of your favourite shows.
Day 22 – how have you changed in the past 2 years?
Day 23 – What childhood toy did you desperately want that your parents refused to give you? Do you still think about getting one?
Day 24 – your favourite movie and what it’s about.
Day 25 – someone who fascinates you and why.
Day 26 – what kind of person attracts you.
Day 27 – a problem that you have had.
Day 28 – something that you miss.
Day 29 – goals for the next 30 days.
Day 30 – your highs and lows of this month

Cant promise that I will blog them all, but I’m going to have a go!

I answered the phone and it turned out to be my sons school, who informed me that he had fallen over and had a deep cut on the back of his head, they asked me to come pick him up, I had to say to them that I was at work and that I would try and contact my husband, ( not as easy as you might think as I had a email from him earlier, informing me that his mobile battery had completely died and we have no land-line).

Anyway, I went and told my boss what was going on and asked if I could go try contacting my husband or somebody to get hold of him so he knew what was going on, I couldn’t reach anybody so by this point I tried my parents who live in the next town over, turned out that my dad was at work, then about five minutes later my mum rang back saying that she’d rang my dad at work and they were coming straight over.

By this time, I’d already gone back downstairs and spoken to my boss, who then turned round and said to me, your son is more important than work, go, but let me know how he is”.

I got to the school and found my son sat in the reception area, holding a piece of gauze to his head with a member of staff waiting for me, my first thought on seeing him was that he looked slightly pale and then I just gave him a cuddle.

Went outside with him to wait for my parents to come and take us to the hospital via our house to let my husband know what was going on, got to hospital and he looked OK when we got there, still saw the doctor though and my little boy was brave, even though he got his wound washed with salt water to clean it, then he had to get his head glued.

Got home and he now seems unintentionally determined to get sent back to hospital, I’m on tenterhooks watching his near misses!!

As a consequence of doing this course my manager now wants to put me on another course which is a level 2 Apprenticeship in Multi-Skilled Hospitality – a  qualification that is equivalent to five GCSEs grade A*-C.

I sat and thought about it for days before agreeing to complete it because it would mean working some shifts in kitchen area, which I was loath to do as I was kind of scared of working in kitchen.

I talked it over with my husband and he encouraged me to go for it, also saying that there must be a reason why im still working there, after filling out so many application forms for jobs and not getting anything.

He also said something quite interesting which was that he could see me in a management position ten years down the line, when I queried him he said that I am capable of a management position, its just that I lack the confidence.

So, I guess I will stick the job out and lets see where it takes me!

Love is… Taking the rough with the smooth.

Love is… Never giving up.

Love is… Believing in each other.

Love is… Telling the truth, even though it might hurt.

Love is… Thankfulness.

I dont say it often enough, I am so blessed with my wonderful husband and I love him so much.

Thankyou for putting up with me babe x

He starts off OK, then as soon as either one of us lets go of his back he stops pedaling, it really is quite infuriating as he is so close to getting it, I guess that its all about confidence.

We shall see.

Lots of tears and hugs from everybody.

They are such a incredible family and a big part of the Church.

Will be missed immensely.